Jim (jimmyjimjim) wrote,

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i can never truly put it in words.....

But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give
To you... Hey girl, I don't want you to cry no more - inside
All the money in the world could never add up to the love
I have inside...
I love you ------back street boys

in this entry im going to try to put into words how much i love cherry, so not only can i make her understand a little bit more but i want the world to know.

with an ironclad fist I wake up
and french kiss the morning
while some marching band keeps
its own beat in my head while we're talking
about all of the things that i long to believe
about love and the truth
and what you mean to me
and the truth is,baby you're all that I need

I wanna lay you down on abed of roses
for tonite I'd sleep on abed of nails
I wanna be just as close as
the Holy Ghost is
and lay you down on a bed of roses

Well I'm so far away
each step that I take is on my way home
a king's ransom in dimes I'd give each night
just to see through this payphone
still I run out of time
or its hard to get through
till the bird on the wire flies me back to you
I'll just close my eyes and whisper
baby blind love is true ----- bon jovi

My Little Angel
At night i used to dream of love
But i never dreampt that from above
God would send an angel with beauty and grace
That with only words puts a smile on my face

Each day used to be filled with sadness and sorrow
But now they are filled with hope for tomorrw
That someday I'll hold my gift from above
And be with my one, my only true love ----- jimmy watkins

all the time i think of you
you cheer me up when i am blue
you pick me up when i am down
you make me smile each time i frown
i dream that i can hold you tight
and kiss your cheek and say g'night
i love you more than words can say
i know ill be with you someday
and i'll always be there for you
no matter what life puts you through -------- jimmy watkins

lemme tell you about the old me, i was a guy who got picked on in school, ive had friends that i thought were true friends, they werent, one of they started to make fun of me and it hurt, i spent like everyday for about 2 years of my life with him, he knew everything about me and i trusted him, and when he started to act like everyone else, it was like someone stuck a knife in my back and i was left with one less friend , ive had about 4 or 5 real friends throughout my whole life, shawn, andrew, trevor, jeremy, doug, theres been a few others that have come and gone. after that guy did that and i startet to see what people at school and the whole world in general was like, i told myself that i wouldnt let anything else get to me, and in time i became like a rock, seriously, i went to my grandfathers funeral, i saw my friends dad die in only a few months from cancer, i saw what the world could do and i never cried once, the world treated me like shit, i just lived and watched as other people met people and were happy and i saw couples and i wanted that too, i wanted someone but i thought, im just not good enough, theres no girls that like me and i thought it was me,i liked a few girls alot and they never even knew i existed, i told myself ewverynight that i wasnt good enough and that they could do better than me so i dont blame them for not liking me, theres other personal moments in my life that contributed to who i was, nothing bothered me, i never thought of killing myself but at times i didnt care if i was alive or not, i met this girl at work that i liked alot, i fought with my feelings everynight and day trying to think of one good reason why she would like me and one good reason to tell her how i felt, i think she played with me, one day she would seem like she might actually like me, then one day it would seem like she wanted nothing to do with me, and i finally excepted that i was meant to be alone, then through an act of God i met an angel called cherry, rightawy i knew she was truly special, all the feeling i had for this other girl were gone, i dont know exactly how quickly i fell in love with cherry but it wasnt long, i let myself get my hopes up again and i thought that i must be crazy to fall in love with a girl from california, then she told me she had a boyfriend and i thought i was used to getting put down by all those other girls, but this was different, it was like my heart got crushed but i tried not to let it show, i kept talking to her,trying to be a friend but wanting to be much more , one day she said she liked someone, i wanted more than anything to belive it could be me, but i never dreampt she would ever have any feelings for me,then one day a friend of ours told me who it was she liked, i remember smiling so wide, it was like a dream true, i talked to her and she said she liked me, she said she was jealous of me cuz i was perfect, i told her i thought she was perfect to except that she liked me, but i told her that i wasnt the kinda guy that could have a relationship over the net, it really hurt her too, and it hurt me more that she knew, because i wished to God that it could be different and that i could be closer to the first person i ever loved, i cared about my family and few friends and i would do anything for them, but i never loved them, me and cherry kept talkin , she knew i cared about her and i knew she cared about me, one day i called her, i was sooooo nervous, i didnt know what to say, we talked for a bit and i smiled for days after, i had rarely ever smiled before that , then after i called her a few more times, one day she said she had something to tell me, it took her a while and she was really nervous, so was i, but when she said she loved me, i think it was that very moment that the rest of the world went away, the wall i had built to keep my emotions in was gone, i was so nervous and happy and excited all i could say while smiling wider that ever was "well....i think i love you too" , i knew i loved her, i had no boubt, but we kept talking and one day she asked me "so what do you tell people when thay ask about us, like do you say im your girlfriend?"i told her im not sure what i would say but i would like to say she was, she said, "you know for you to be able to say that you would have to ask me out first" so i was nervous as hell but i asked her "cherry will you go out with me" and when she smiled and said yes i was happier than i had ever been, but i had started to get this feeling that i really wanted to hold her and be with her , then she told me that she had to tell her dad about me so she called him, i waited about 10 mins and i was nervous as hell and when she came back and told me her dad dint like me and everything i was crushed and knew that to be with her i would have to work harder than i realised, but i realised that the more i work to be with her the more it showed how much i love her, ive known cherry for 8 months, and i still .,ove her more everyday, and i still work hard to be with her and i still have no intention of ever giving up, she told me after her talk with her dad that if i couldnt handle it i should just go, i told her no, that i didnt want to go , im still here, and weve been through some really rough times, together and seperate, but i still love her with all my heart, shes all i think about , shes the first thing on my mind when i wake up, and the last thing on my mind when i go to bed, i hadnt cried for about 10 or more years, i felt nothing for many years, but when i met cherry she changed me, im the happiest man alive because of her, ive cried for hours just longing to hold her and scared to death of losing her, ive wrote poems for her, and i even bought her a beautiful gift for her birthday (which got broke and she still hasnt got) i sent her my teddy bear i had since i was really little, all to try to show how much i love her and how much i appreciate what shes done for me but i know i can never truly show her untill the day i can be with her, and even then i dont know if i can even truly show her, shes my angel, my cher bear, my sweety, my cutie, my ray of sunshine to warm me up in this cold dark world, shes my everything , through all that ive said i hope it shows her and everyone just a little piece of how much i love her, i know i cant put it in words, but i can say i really believe i have found the perfect girl and i love her with all my heart and someday if it is meant to be and if God wills it, ill hold her and ill look into her eyes and see into her soul and tell her that i love her i wish there was some way for me to say it and it would all be clear, but all i can say is cherry, i truly love you with all my heart please dont give up on us and send me back to being alone and cold like i was before, please keep giving me something to live for

Sometimes I wonder
If I'd ever make it through
Through this world
without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue
Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world's closing in on me
And there's no way of breaking free
And then I see you reach for me
Sometimes I wanna give up
Wanna give in
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you baby
And everything's alright
Everything's alright
When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining
right through the rain
When I see you smile
Baby when I see you smile at me
Oh yeah
Baby there's nothing in this world that could ever do
What the touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew
And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it
Cause you're here with me now
I wanna ask you baby
It's all Ill ever need
All I'll ever need
When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining
right through the rain
When I see you smile baby
Baby when I see you smile at me
Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in
I wanna quit the fight
Then one look at you baby
And everything's alright
Hey everything's alright
It's alright
So right!
When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining
right through the rain
When I see you smile
Yeah I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything now
When I see you smile
Oh yeah
Baby when I see you smile
Smile at me (im not sure who wrote it but it wasnt me)

to paigie "its like im missing a piece of myself and i have to wat till june to find it"

JimmyJimJim27: (hopes it doesnt sound wierd and just says it) you really are beautiful you know
cs a million: hmm...*^_^*i dunno what to say to that...thank you
cs a million: *giggles and tries to not blush*
JimmyJimJim27: ive been meaning to say that for a while but all i was able to say was how cute you are
cs a million: awww

I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again

All over again

Some people say
That everything has got its place in time
Even the day must give way to the night
But I'm not buying
Cos in your eyes
I see a love that burns eternally
And if you see how beautiful you are to me
You'll know I'm not lying ----westlife-swear it again

i guess this isnt something thats been on my mind its just something i have to say, i really enjoy talking to you, theres something about your voice that makes the rest of the world just go away, and your giggle makes me smile everytime no matter how im feeling, ive been pretty down before when ive called you, but that quickly changes when i hear your voice, i think you have the cutest voice and you say the cutest things and i cant wait till the day when i dont have to hear your voice over the phone, when i can look at your cute face and listen to your cute voice at the same time and look into your beautiful eyes, i promise you i will look into your eyes and say i love you------from an email i sent cherry

cs a million: *giggles*
JimmyJimJim27: what ya gigglin about?
cs a million: nothing
JimmyJimJim27: ok
cs a million: *laughs softly and tries to hide it*
JimmyJimJim27: whats so funny?
cs a million: absolutely nothing
JimmyJimJim27: cmon tell me
cs a million: its just cute how you're acting

Bed of roses says:
(smiles softly) ok ill call ya after the picture and i take out my contacts, talk to ya then, love ya cher bear
If you're sexy and you know it clap your hands says:
love you too hunny bunny

Cherry says:
awwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*hugs and kisses you*that is so sweet!!!!!!!!!
i l ve y u cherry says:
(smiles softly and hugs and kisses back) so it helped you understand a bit?
Cherry says:
i l ve y u cherry says:
okie, then all that typing was worth it
Cherry says:
i l ve y u cherry says:
all that typing can me summarized into 3 little words.............i love you
Cherry says:
Cherry says:
i love you too
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